(不给糖就捣蛋) Trick or treat.
(哈，看看这个) Well, look at this.
(我门廊上面的超级英雄们 可爱吧？) All the superheroes on our porch. Ain't that cute?
(我们这儿有超人，还有蝙蝠侠) We got Superman here, and Batman...
(还有他的伙伴Robin) and his sidekick Robin.
绿色灯笼 你是什么，年轻人？ The Green Lantern. And what about you, young man?
-什么是什么？ -你这是扮的谁呀？ -What about what? -Who are you supposed to be?
-我是Harvey Pekar -I'm Harvey Pekar. -Pecker.
那听起来可不象一个超级英雄的名字呀 Harvey Pekar? That doesn't sound like a superhero to me.
我不是超级英雄，太太 I ain't no superhero, lady.
我只是邻居的一个孩子，好吗？ I'm just a kid from the neighborhood, all right?
算了吧！ Forget this!
为什么每个人都要这么愚蠢？ Why does everybody have to be so stupid?
片名：光耀美国
好了，这个家伙，就是我们的主角 Okay, this guy here, he's our man.
已经长大成人了，但不知去向何方 All grown up and going nowhere.
一直看上去是个书生气的人 他从来没有得到过多少正规的教育 Always a pretty scholarly cat. He never got much of a formal education.
大部分时间，他生活在狗屎一样的社区， 干着狗屎一样的工作 For the most part, he's lived in shit neighborhoods, held shit jobs...
现在又在灾难性的二次婚姻 中陷得很深 and is now knee-deep into a disastrous second marriage.
所以，如果你是在 寻找浪漫或在逃避什么 So if you're the kind of person looking for romance or escapism...
或者是什么幻想的人物来打发时间 你知道吗？ or some fantasy figure to save the day, guess what?
-你看错电影了 -很好 -You got the wrong movie. -That's great.
你现在有4个镜头了 你应该能够从中拼一个出来 So now you got four takes. You ought to be able to patch one together from there.
是吗?开始下一个吧，好吗？ Right? Let's go to the next one, all right?
等一下 你要喝水呀什么的吗？ Hold on a second. Do you want some water or something?
-不，我有很多橙子汽水 -你喜欢橙子汽水? -No, I got lots of orange. -Do you like orange soda?
是的，橙子不错 Yeah, orange is all right.
好的，我们开始下一个序列吧 All right, let's go to the next sequence.
你真的读了剧本？ Did you actually read the script?
不就一点点 No. A little bit.
只是查看一下结构 Just to check the construction.
各个片断是怎么构造的 You know, how the piece was constructed.
我没有一个字一个字的来读 I didn't read it word for word.
你说这些不觉得怪吗？ Do you feel weird saying this stuff?
不，我说这些不觉得怪 No, I don't feel weird saying it.
我不知道我的嗓子 还能坚持多久 I don't know how long my voice is going to hold out.
医生，你得帮帮我 Doc, you gotta help me, man.
我的女人要甩了我 因为我没法说话 My old lady's dumping me 'cause I can't talk.
她说我上不得台面 She says I'm a social embarrassment.
现在她有个博士学位， 她是什么狗屎学术界明星了 Now that she's got a PhD, she's some hot-shit academic star...
而我只是一个档案管理员 and I'm nothing but a file clerk.
给她写支票付学费的时候 我是个档案管理员倒是无关紧要 Me being a file clerk was fine when I was signing the damn checks for tuition.
Harvey，请不要说话了，张大嘴 Harvey, stop talking, please, and open wide.
我开始担心我的嗓音再也不会恢复了 I started worrying my voice would never come back.
说“啊”，Pekar先生 Say "Aah," Mr. Pekar.
我和你说，这简直就是折磨 It's torture, I'm telling you.
怎么样？很坏吗？医生 What? Is it bad, Doc?
不大好 It's not good.
是癌症 It's cancer.
先是我的婚姻出现了问题， 然后你又告诉我我得了喉癌 First I got marital problems, and now you're telling me I got throat cancer.
-看在上帝份上 -Harvey，冷静点，这不是癌 -For Christ's sake, man. -Harvey, calm down, it's not cancer.
你声带上有个节， 可能是喊叫造成的 You have a nodule on your vocal cords, probably from screaming and yelling.
你如果不让它休息休息， 你就彻底不能说话了 If you don't give it a rest, you're gonna lose your voice completely.
好的不过要多长？ Okay. But for how long?
-几个月 -几个月？ -A few months. -Months?
-嘿，怎么啦，这是怎么回事？ -这看上去象什么就是什么咯 -Hey, come on, what is this? -Exactly what it looks like.
你什么意思？ 你是说你要甩了我？为什么？ What do you mean? You mean you're dumping me? For what?
这种升斗小民的生活方式 This plebeian lifestyle...
我实在不能适应了，好吗？ just isn't working for me anymore, okay?
我得在我自杀之前离开这里 I gotta get out of here before I kill myself.
听一下我想说的吧，好吗？ Just listen to what I have to say, okay?
不要走 Don't go.
我需要你，宝贝 I need you, baby.
请不要走，好吗？ Please don't go, okay?
这就是我们的主角 Here's our man.
是的，好的，这就是我 Yeah, all right, here's me.
或者是扮演我的人， 虽然他看上去不像我 Or the guy playing me anyway, though he don't look nothing like me.
管他呢？ But whatever.
几个月后，我在退伍军人医院 做我讨厌的文员的工作 So it's a few months later, and I'm working my flunky file clerk gig at the VA hospital.
我的嗓音还是没有恢复 My voice still ain't back yet.
谢谢你，Harvey，亲爱的 Thank you, Harvey, dear.
看上去一切已经不能再糟了 Things seem like they can't get any worse.
“升斗小民”？ "Plebeian"?
她是从哪里学来这种狗屁的？ Where the hell did she get that shit, man?
“避开发臭的兽群 "Avoid the reeking herd
“逃离不洁的牲畜 "Shun the polluted flock
“象那坚忍的鸟儿 "Live like that stoic bird
“那石做的雄鹰一样生活” "The eagle of the rock"
-嘿，Boats先生 -你知道那是什么意思吧，年轻人？ -Hey, Mr. Boats. -You know what that means, son?
是，那是Elinor Hoyt Wylie的一首诗 Yeah, it's from an Elinor Hoyt Wylie poem.
意思是对不起 It means.... Excuse me.
意思是离开那些 平凡普通的人群 It means stay away from the crowds of common, ordinary people...
-做你自己想做的事 -不 -and do your own thing. -No.
它的意思是不要对女人 妥协，这对你没有好处 It means don't compromise yourself for women. It ain't gonna do you no good.
尽量远离她们 Get away from them as soon as you can.
我现在没有女人 I ain't got no woman now.
-我活得就像坚忍的鸟儿 -这是生存的唯一方式，年轻人 -I'm living like the stoic bird, man. -It's the only way to live, son.
看那边那个傻子 Look at that fool there.
他可能正在听吵闹的摇滚乐之类的东西 垃圾，这全是垃圾 Probably listening to that loud rock stuff. Junk, it's all junk.
我不知道我是说 I don't know. I mean...
摇滚乐也有好的地方 rock music's got some good qualities.
它不是爵士乐或是其他东西，但是 It isn't jazz or nothing, but you know....
那你什么时候给我些 好的唱片呀？ Say, when are you gonna bring me in some of those good records?
-Nat King Cole和弦乐？ -我没有那种东西，Boats先生 -Some Nat King Cole with strings. -I don't got any of that, Mr. Boats.
不，你有 不过你把他们放在家里 Yeah, you got that. You're keeping them at home, though.
你不想丢掉那些好东西 你只卖垃圾 You won't turn loose the good stuff. You just sell the junk.
我保留我想留下的东西 I keep the stuff I wanna keep.
我卖很多像他那样的人 不喜欢的东西 I sold a lot of good material by people that he didn't like.
Boats先生不喜欢任何布鲁斯 或诸如此类的东西 Mr. Boats didn't like any blues or anything like that.
他演奏古典小提琴曲 He played classical violin.
我从15或16岁就开始 搜集唱片 I started record collecting when I was 15 or 16 years old.
我开始对爵士乐感兴趣 I started getting interested in jazz.
在这之前，我收藏漫画书 Prior to that, I collected comic books.
我一直是个收藏者 I was always a collector.
我承认我有点强迫症 I admit to having an obsessive-compulsive quality in me.
就象《碧血金沙》里那样 It's like The Treasure of the Sierra Madre or something.
你去廉价店或去车库拍卖会 You go to thrift shops and you go to the garage sales...
是因为你认为你能找到 什么很珍贵的东西 because you think you're gonna find something that's real rare.
大部分情况下，这完全是浪费时间 不过有时候 And most of time, it's a total waste of time, but once in a while...
你会碰到一些 合你胃口的东西 you'll come up with something that'll whet your appetite.
在60年代早期 In the early '60s...
我和几个伙伴在旧货摊上挑东西 I was with some buddies at a junk sale, looking for some choice sides...
就在那时我遇到了这个腼腆、沉默的 费城佬，Bob Crumb when I met this shy, retiring cat from Philadelphia named Bob Crumb.
你听说过这人 You know the guy.
《怪猫菲力兹》、《Mr. Natural》等等 他们还拍过一部关于他的电影 Fritz the Cat, Mr. Natural and all. They made a movie about him, too.
Jay McShann. Jay McShann
快点，Harv，你是要买那个， 还是要怎样？ Come on, Harv, you gonna buy that, or what?
我不知道，Marty， 它有道裂痕 I don't know, Marty, it's got a lamination crack.
两角五分 A quarter.
也许我能把价钱压下来 Maybe I could talk it down.
-你是个下流的杂种，Harvey -我知道我很小气，老兄 -You are one cheap bastard, Harvey. -I know I'm tight, man.
我是靠政府工资过活的 I live on a government wage.
朋友，你收集Jay McShann的唱片？ You collect Jay McShann, man?
-是的，朋友，你呢？ -也是 -Yeah, man, how about you? -Yeah.
不过我的大多数唱片都在费城 But most of my records are back in Philly.
Harvey，认识一下我的朋友，Bob Crumb 他刚搬到城里 Harvey, meet my buddy, Bob Crumb. He just moved to town.
他是美国贺卡公司的画家 He's an artist with the American Greeting Card Company.
你应该看看他的漫画，Harv 它们酷极了 You should see his comics, Harv. They're out of sight.
我自己就上了漫画 I'm into comics myself.
于是Crumb就给我看了他正在画的这本 连环漫画： So Crumb showed me this comic book novel he was working on:
Big Yum Yum Book. Big Yum Yum Book
我从没见过这样的漫画 I'd never seen anything like it.
妙极了我真的很喜欢你的作品，老兄 This is terrific. I really dig your work, man.
这本Peter Wheat的书是Walt Kelly画的 它很稀有 This Peter Wheat book is by Walt Kelly. It's pretty rare.
-是吗？我能拿它换很多钱？ -还不行 -Yeah? Can I get good bread for it? -Not yet.
还是来说说你的书吧 你打算拿它怎么样？ Let's get back to your book. What are you gonna do with it?
我还没有真正想过 这只是练习 I haven't really thought about it. It's just an exercise.
不，老兄这不仅仅是练习 No, man. It's more than just an exercise.
这是创举 这里面有一些很疯狂的东西，Bob It's breaking ground, man. There's some wild shit in here, Bob.
你的口水都溅到我身上了，Harvey You're spitting on me, Harvey.
之后Crumb和我一起呆了很久 Crumb and I hung out a lot back then.
我们在唱片和漫画上有共同语言 We had records and comics in common.
瞧瞧这个，老兄 Check it out, man.
很吓人 Pretty scary.
你连它的一半都不理解，老兄 You don't know the half of it, man.
最终，人们接受了Crumb的作品... Eventually, people got hip to Crumb's artwork...
而他开始和放荡不羁的人混在一起 and he started hanging out with the bohemian crowd.
过了一阵，他厌倦了贺卡， 就搬到旧金山去了... After a while, he got sick of greeting cards and moved away to San Francisco...
在那里他遇到了非主流的整个地下漫画界 where he got the whole underground comic scene off the ground.
每隔几年他都会回克里夫兰一次... He'd come back to Cleveland every few years...
人们会把他当成名人看待 and people would treat him like a celebrity.
有一次，他在我觉得非常糟糕的时候来看我 Once, he came to visit when I was feeling real bad.
当时我妻子刚刚离开我 It was right after my wife left me.
到头来她还是对我那么重要... She got so mean to me at the end...
好像我一直在想办法拴住她或怎样 Iike I tried to keep her captive or anything like that.
我不知道，老兄 I don't know, man.
不过别以为我会指望这能让我成长， 老兄 But don't think I'm buying any of this growth crap, man.
每个人都说痛苦的经历 会怎样让你成长... Everybody's always talking about how bad experiences cause you to grow...
或者类似的陈词滥调 and all that cliched stuff.
老兄，我受够了痛苦， 已经成长到能挺下去了 Man, I got enough bad experiences and growth to last me plenty.
如今... Right now...
我愿意拿一些成长换来快乐 I'd be glad to trade some growth for happiness.
你要在克里夫兰呆多久，老兄？ How long you staying in Cleveland, man?
我不知道， 我要在纽约见那妞... I don't know, I got to see this chick in New York...
可现在我正忙着画这本漫画 and I'm really busy with the comic book stuff.
这只是为了谋生 我已经开始讨厌这一切了 It's good bread and all. I'm just getting sick of the whole scene.
你在说什么呀？ What are you talking about?
你画画赚了很多钱，对吗？ You make a good living doing your art, right?
有多少人在一生中有这么好运？ How many guys get that lucky in their life?
听着，我要告诉你一些事 Listen, I'll tell you something.
人们已经开始知道Crumb这个名字了 People are starting to know the name Crumb.
在你发牢骚的时候， 老兄，你忘记了一些事 When you croak, man, you're gonna leave something behind.
对，我想是的 Yeah, I guess.
这和我是Blind Lemon Jefferson或Big Mama Thornton不一样 It's not like I'm Blind Lemon Jefferson, or Big Mama Thornton.
别逗了，老兄 Come on, man.
让我告诉你， 这肯定要强过做我这样的活... I tell you something, it sure beats working a gig like mine...
当一个狗屁不是的瘪三 和卖一块钱的唱片 being a nobody flunky and selling records on the side for $1.
嗯，那倒是真的 Well, that's true.
听好，小姑娘... Listen, girlie...
这些玻璃杯是2美元六个，因为我带不了12个 these glasses are six for $2 because I couldn't carry 1 2.
但是我需要12个 所以今天我又买了六个 But I wanted 1 2. So today, I'm buying six more.
不过你应该只收我1.5美元 But you should only charge me $1.50 for them.
没关系你可以问经理 It's all right. You can ask the manager.
Frank，我需要检查一下价格 Frank, I need a price check.
老兄，犹太老婆子永远都会为 任何事情和出纳争 Man, old Jewish ladies will argue forever with a cashier about anything.
这些玻璃杯... These glasses....
你排在她们后面，就得永远等下去 You get behind them in line and you're gonna wait forever.
...因为我带不了12个所以今天.... ...because I couldn't carry 1 2. So today....
我自己就是犹太佬... I'm a yid myself...
我家里的女人也和犹太人一样， 但是我从来都没习惯 and women in my family are like that, but I never got used to it.
我是说，我可能很小气， 但那也有个限度 I mean, I may be cheap, but I got limits, man.
让我再解释一次 Let me explain one more time.
这些玻璃杯是2美元六个 These glasses are six for $2....
醒醒吧！这种废话正在 耗尽你的人生 Wake up! Your whole life's getting eaten away with this kind of crap.
这是一种什么生活？ What kind of existence is this?
这就是你这样的 穷小工能指望的一切吗？ Is this all a working stiff like you can expect?
你是要拿余生默默忍受， 还是要作出点成就？ You gonna suffer in silence for the rest of your life, or are you gonna make a mark?
好的，我的钱就在这儿 不多不少，1.5美元 Okay, I have the money right here. Even money, $1.50.
你甚至都不用开收银机 You don't even have to open the cash register.
钱数正好然后，亲爱的... Even change. And, dear....
啊，该死！ Oh, shit!
自从我看了你的书，老兄， 我就一直在想... Ever since I read your stuff, man, I've been thinking...
我可以写出一些... I can write comic book stories...
和以前的书都不一样的 漫画故事 that are different from anything that's been done.
我认为，那些搞动物漫画... I figure the guys who are doing animal comics...
和超级英雄漫画的人，都是束手束脚的 and superhero stuff, they're really limited.
因为他们要设法去吸引小孩子 Because they got to try to appeal to kids.
而你们这样的地下漫画 确实很有颠覆性... And underground stuff like yours has been really subversive...
它聪明地开创了新的东西... and it's opened things up politically...
可是还可以对它们作许多改进 but there's still plenty more to be done with them, too.
把番茄酱给我 Pass the ketchup.
那些文字、图片， 可以提升为一种艺术形式 The words, the pictures, they could be more of an art form.
你知道，就像那些法国电影... You know, like those French movies...
或者是意大利的那个德·西卡 or De Sica over in ltaly.
所以，我就试着... So, anyway, I tried....
我试着写了一些关于现实生活的素材... I tried writing some stuff about real life...
每个人都要面对的东西 stuff that the everyman's got to deal with.
这些都是关于你的？ These are all about you?
对 Yeah.
你把自己写成了漫画英雄 You've turned yourself into a comic hero.
有一点，不过没有理想化的狗屁 Sort of, but there's no idealized shit.
没有那种虚假的狗屎 这是真实的事情，老兄 There's no phony bullshit. This is the real thing, man.
你知道，日常生活是 相当复杂的东西 You know, ordinary life is pretty complex stuff.
这些东西确实... These are really...
很好 good.
真的？你这么想？ Really, you think so?
对，这是很棒的东西我喜欢 Yeah, this is great stuff. I dig it.
我可以把他们带回家，画出来吗？ Can I take them home and illustrate them?
你真的会替我那么做，老兄？ You'd really do that for me, man?
那可太棒了，因为 我连条直线都画不来，Bob That would be great because I can't even draw a straight line, Bob.
你的嗓子是怎么回事，Harv？ 你突然听起来不哑了 What's up with your voice, Harv? All of a sudden, you sound fine.
我不知道，老兄我想是你治好了我 I don't know, man. I guess you cured me.
那个Bonnie，她的腿完了 That Bonnie, her legs go forever.
她有多聪明？ How smart is she?
我不知道，我想她大概一般吧 I don't know. I guess she's about average.
一般？嘿，老兄，一般就是很傻 Average? Hey, man, average is dumb.
那么要是她很傻会怎样？我不关心 So what if she's dumb? I don't care.
“嘿，老兄，一般就是很傻” "Hey, man, average is dumb."
我操这真的都是你们的故事 Fuck that. That's all stories by yours truly.
-新出版的？ -没错 -Hot off the presses? -That's right.
我们这儿有个真正的海明威 We have a regular Hemingway here.
没门，我可不会弄什么 男子气概之类的废话 No way, I don't go in for any of that macho crap.
我还不知道你会画画 I didn't know you could draw.
不，我不会画，大夫我只是写故事 No, I don't draw, doc. I write the stories.
-Harvey，里面有我吗？ -有你，行了吧？慢慢看 -Harvey, am I in here? -You're in there, all right? Take it easy.
我的一个朋友和他的几个朋友 负责画画 A buddy of mine and some of his friends do the art work.
让我瞧瞧 Let me see this.
Boats先生，抢东西是不礼貌的行为 下一次-- Mr. Boats, it's not polite to grab things. Next time--
不坏呀 It's not bad.
小伙子，你干得很好 Son, you done good.
不过你知道吗，几个星期前 我去了多伦多 But you know, I was up in Toronto a few weeks back.
我看了红色中国的芭蕾 那可真美 I saw the Red Chinese ballet. Now, that was beautiful.
那些人一起跳舞的样子... The way those people were dancing together...
我跟你说，那些中国人，他们跳得很努力 those Chinese, they work hard, I tell you.
人都上哪儿去了？ Where's everybody going?
你们这些病人急着上哪儿？ Where are you sick men rushing off to?
你们现在哪儿都去不了 You ain't going nowhere for now.
也许要不了多久 Probably not for a long time.
真该死，要是他们不是急着去那儿就好了 But damn if they're not a rushing off to get there.
Harvey，你的同事和朋友对你 把他们写进漫画里怎么想？ Harvey, how do your co-workers and friends feel about you putting them in your comics?
他们喜欢这样他们总是要个没够 They love it. They can't get enough of it.
他们会过来找我，想知道 自己为什么不在新的一期里 They come up to me demanding to know why I'm not in the new issue.
他们大多这样 Most of them.
那么听别人交谈呢？ 你总是在工作时听人说话吗？ What about overhearing what people say? Are you always listening at work?
你坐公共汽车时也在听吗？ Were you listening riding the bus?
-在超市呢？ -是的，我在听 -The supermarket? -Yeah, I listen.
我也会对别人感到厌烦， 不过对有些人我会注意听 I fall asleep on people, too, but I listen some.
这是我们的主人公， 已经出了八卷漫画 Here's our man, eight comics later.
全新的十年，一样的狗屎 A brand new decade, same old bullshit.
当然，现在他靠写作获得了 许多赞誉 Sure, he gets lots of recognition for his writing now.
所有告诉人们要想什么的 重要媒体都对他的漫画大加赞扬 His comics are praised by all the important media types telling people what to think.
可那又怎样？ But so what?
这不等于说他可以和 Bob Crumb一样靠此谋生 It's not like he makes a living at it, like Bob Crumb.
他不能出走， 辞去他的日常工作或怎样 He can't go and quit his day job or nothing.
我在开玩笑吗？ Who am I kidding?
事实是， 没有我的日常工作我会不知所措 Truth is, I'd be lost without my work routine.
我有一份工作 I got a job.
嗨，Harvey Hi, Harvey.
你要尝尝这些美味的糖豆吗？ Do you want these gourmet jelly beans?
我在四旬斋期间不吃糖果 I gave up sweets for Lent.
-嗯，当然，我会吃的 -我推荐椰奶味的 -Yeah, sure, I'll take them. -I recommend the pina coladas.
它们好吃极了， 而且味道非常纯正 They're excellent and very authentic tasting.
是西瓜味的很好吃 It's watermelon. That's pretty good.
等你尝过椰奶味的再说吧 Wait till you try the pina coladas.
告诉我 Tell me something.
你可以在四旬斋期间吃小扁豆吗？ Can you eat lentils during Lent?
当然，我看不出有什么不可以 Sure, I don't see why not.
在有些日子里你不能吃肉... You can't eat meat on certain days...
但是任何时候都可以吃小扁豆 but lentils should be acceptable anytime.
你认为在小扁豆和 四旬斋之间没有什么联系吗？ Do you think there's any connection between lentils and Lent?
没有不过我星期天 会到教堂问问Mary Fred嬷嬷 I don't think so. But I'll ask Sister Mary Fred at church on Sunday.
Mary Fred嬷嬷，唔？ Sister Mary Fred, huh?
她很可爱吗？她听起来有点男人气， 不过我干吗要挑三拣四呢？ Is she cute? She sounds kind of mannish, but who the hell am I to be picky?
你真好笑她是个修女 You're funny. She's a nun.
那又怎样？没准她就是因为找不到男人 才当了修女 So what? Maybe she became a nun because she couldn't get a guy.
她当修女是因为她 得到了上天的召唤 She became a nun because she had a higher calling.
上天的召唤？什么狗屁玩意 Higher calling? What a crock of shit.
我甚至不知道你为什么要祈祷 I don't even know why you bother praying anyway.
我喜欢那些仪式， 而且我是个非常高尚的人 I enjoy the ritual, and I'm a very spiritual person.
你明白吗，你应该试试去 相信一些比你自身更伟大的东西 You know, you should try believing in something bigger than yourself.
这可以让你振奋起来 It might cheer you up.
什么，我看上去很消沉吗？ What, do I seem depressed?
停！Cut! Cut!
太棒了，老兄 接下来是面包店的那场 That was great, guys. The bakery scene's next.
接下来是面包店的那场？ 我不知道有面包店的戏 The bakery scene's next? I didn't know of a bakery scene.
你有没有听说过面包店的戏？ Did you ever hear of a bakery scene?
面包店是我的戏，不过不是接下来的 Bakery is my scene, but not in that way.
别管面包店了，我们来吃些糖豆吧 Forget the bakery, let's eat some jelly beans.
我想一个可能是酸橙味 另一个可能是薄荷味 I think one might be lime. One might be mint.
这个和这个有什么区别？ What's the difference between this and this?
一个是樱桃味，一个是桂皮味 One's cherry, one's cinnamon.
你光看就能分辨出了？ You could tell that by just looking at them?
不能我得先把它放进嘴里 Not me. I have to put it in my mouth first.
孤独的感觉可能糟糕透了 Loneliness can feel so bad.
我曾经多次感到孤独... There have been times I've felt lonely...
因为很多时候， 只有我和我祖母 'cause a lot of the time, it was just me and my grandmother.
我会整天坐在我的房间里... I'd just be sitting in my room all day...
看电视或读书 watching television or reading books.
当然，那是在我买电脑以前 That was before I bought a computer, of course.
你是怎么排解孤独的，Harvey？ How do you cope with loneliness, Harvey?
-我说过我看电视吗？ -你提到过看电视... -Did I say I watched television? -You mentioned you watch TV...
你听你的爵士乐唱片，你读书... you listen to your jazz records, you read...
你写作，你画草图... you write, you drew your stick figures...
这样你就可以筹划下一本漫画 so you could plan for your next comic book.
我看过你的很多草图 I've seen many of your stick figures.
看上去非常有趣 That seems to be pretty interesting.
-巧克力味糖豆，我要尝一个 -尝吧 -Chocolate jelly beans, I'm gonna try one. -Go ahead.
打扰一下，要点什么？ Excuse me, can I help you?
给我... Give me...
两个油煎饼... two crullers...
带糖粉的果冻面包圈 jelly doughnut with the powdered sugar.
谢谢惠顾 Thanks for coming.
-你们有隔夜的面包吗？ -是的 -You got any of that day-old bread? -I think so.
给你 Here you go.
3美元 $3.
你是Harvey Pekar？ You're Harvey Pekar?
Alice Quinn，同校同学 Alice Quinn, from school.
大学，对 College, yeah.
我们一起上过一些文学课 We had a couple of Lit classes together.
你出了什么事？ 两个学期以后你就不见了 What happened to you? You disappeared after two semesters.
对，我知道 Yeah, I know.
我的成绩都很好， 可是那门必修的数学课... I got good grades and all, but there was that required Math class...
总是让我不得安宁 hanging over my head.
最后，压力太大，所以.... Eventually, the pressure got to be too much, so....
不管怎样，你干得很好 You're doing okay, anyway.
你的那些爵士乐评论和漫画我都听说了 I heard all about your jazz reviews and your comics.
-真的？ -当然，你很出名 -You did? -Sure, you're famous.
我呢，得到了学位， 但只是一个普通的贤妻良母 Meanwhile, I got my degree and I'm just a plain old wife and mother.
我干得不是你想的那么好 I'm not doing as great as you think.
我的第二个妻子和我离婚了， 我做的是没有前途的... My second wife divorced me, I work a dead end job...
档案管理员 as a file clerk.
有时我和街角那里的人 在一块儿闲逛... Sometimes I hang out with the guys on the corner...
不过大多数时候 我只是一个人在家看书 but most of the time I just stay at home by myself and I read.
你要比你想的幸运 You're luckier than you think.
我夹在丈夫和孩子中间... Between my husband and my kids...
连躺下来看本好书都不行 it's impossible for me to curl up with a good book.
我现在正在读德莱塞的书 I'm reading this book by Dreiser now.
-《珍妮姑娘》 -那是我最喜欢的书之一 -Jennie Gerhardt. -That's one of my favorites.
是吗？ Yeah?
我希望这本书的结尾不是像 大多数自然主义小说那样... I hope that book don't end like so many of those naturalist novels...
靠一些不可抗拒的力量... with someone getting crushed to earth...
把一些人压垮 by forces he can't control.
那会出乎你意料的 I think you'll be pleasantly surprised.
我是说， 它当然不是好莱坞式的大团圆... I mean, it's certainly not your Hollywood happy ending...
但却非常真实，这在如今很少见了 but it's pretty truthful, which is rare these days.
-这是我的 -哦 -This is me. -All right.
-好车 -谢谢 -Nice car. -Thanks.
-我还没有车呢 -要我带你到哪里吗？ -I don't have one yet. -Can I give you a lift somewhere?
不，不用了 天气很好，我只想走路 No, that's all right. It's a nice day, I'll just walk.
见到你很高兴 It was nice seeing you.
当我回到家时，我读完了《珍妮姑娘》 When I got home, I finished reading Jennie Gerhardt.
真的很棒那个Alice是对的 It was real good. That Alice was right.
当然，主要人物莱斯特最后还是忏悔了... Sure, Lester, the main character, croaks in the end...
但至少他是自然老死的，下场很好 but at least he's old and dies a natural, dignified death.
在那个周末我觉得比以往更寂寞 I was more alone that weekend than any.
有时在梦中，我会觉得 身边有个人... Sometimes in my sleep, I'd feel a body next to me...
就好像被截肢的人感到自己的肢体还在一样 Iike an amputee feels a phantom limb.
我脑子里光想着《珍妮姑娘》和Alice Quinn... All I did was think about Jennie Gerhardt and Alice Quinn...
还有我这辈子认识的人 and all the decades of people I had known.
我想得越多，就越想哭 The more I thought, the more I felt like crying.
生活似乎是那样甜蜜，又那样忧伤... Life seemed so sweet and so sad...
到头来又是那样难以割舍 and so hard to let go of in the end.
不过老兄，每一天都是全新的一天，对吗？ But hey, man, every day is a brand new deal, right?
只要一直工作下去， 有些事情自然就会发生 Just keep on working and something's bound to turn up.
新出版的《光耀美国》在哪儿? What happened to the new American Splendor?
-我想是卖掉了，宝贝 -全都卖掉了？ -I think we sold them, babe. -All of them?
对 Yeah.
Rand，我给自己留了一本在收银机旁边 Rand, I put one aside for myself next to the register.
我还没空看呢 I haven't even had time to read it yet.
对不起，Joyce，我不知道你是 《光耀美国》的书迷 Sorry, Joyce, I didn't know you were such a Splendor fan.
下一次把书拿到家里去 Next time, take it home.
也许我该给出版商打电话 Maybe I'll call the publisher.
那又要拖上很久浑蛋！ It'll take so damn long. Shit!
为什么我人生中的一切 都是这样一团糟的灾难？ Why does everything in my life have to be such a complicated disaster?
-好吧，也许我们可以打电话-- -这是什么？ -Okay, maybe we can call someone-- -What is this?
没关系好吧 All right. Okay.
我得在地震更猛烈以前 快点离开这儿 I'm gonna hustle before the vibe in here gets any worse.
你待着就行 You can just hang.
“亲爱的Pekar先生... "Dear Mr. Pekar...
“我从联邦第二小的州... "greetings from the second smallest state in the Union...
“在化工巨头们操纵的、无边无际的... "an endless plastics and nylon plantation...
“塑料和尼龙种植园里向您致意 "controlled by giant chemical corporations.
“更让人郁闷的是，在我们镇上 没有一间像样的漫画书店... "To make matters more dismal, there are no decent comic book stores in my town...
“所以我的同伴和我只能自己开一间 "which is why my partner and I opened one ourselves.
“虽然我们的生意一直不太好... "Despite our steadily faltering business...
“但是我的同伴还是从我手里... "my partner managed to sell the last copy of American Splendor Number 8...
“卖掉了最后一本《光耀美国》卷8 "out from under me.
“我是个狂热的书迷， 不想再等新订的书送来 "I'm a big fan, and I hate to wait for a new order.
“我能不能从您那儿直接拿一本？ "Is there any way I can get it from you direct?
“真诚的Joyce Brabner” "Sincerely, Joyce Brabner. "
她的字写得很好看 She's got good-looking handwriting.
“亲爱的Joyce，谢谢....” "Dear Joyce, thanks for the.... "
“亲爱的Joyce，谢谢你来信 "Dear Joyce, thanks for the letter.
“你除了卖漫画还干什么？” "What do you do besides selling comics?"
在这里有谁从事过 创作性的写作或别的什么吗？ Anybody in the room ever done any creative writing of any sort?
“我有时是志愿者， 教囚犯写作 "I'm a sometime activist, and I teach writing to prisoners.
“我设法帮他们营造内心的生活... "I try to help them build an interior life...
“从他们那单调、 沉闷的日常生活中提取艺术” "and make art out of their monotonous, suffocating routine. "
听上去似曾相识 This sounds familiar.
“那么你结婚了没有？” "So you married or what?"
“我离婚了，感谢上帝” "I'm divorced, thank God. "
嗯，我觉得你和我有很多 共同点，你说呢？ Look, I think you and l got a lot in common, you know?
我请你到克里夫兰 来看我，怎样？ How am I gonna get you to come visit me in Cleveland?
-克里夫兰？ -对 -Cleveland? -Yeah.
你觉得这是个好主意吗？ You think that's a good idea?
好极了 It's a great idea.
你应该见见我，我是个很棒的人 You should meet me because I'm a great guy.
不管我的漫画怎么写... Despite the way my comics read...
我身上有很多能够弥补缺点的地方 I got a lot of redeeming characteristics.
我不知道我住在哪儿？ I don't know. Where would I stay?
不知道跟我一起住 I don't know. With me.
别担心 我不会对你动手动脚的 Don't worry. I'm not gonna put no moves on you.
我倒不担心这个 I'm not worried about that.
等一等， 我刚把甘菊茶翻到身上了 Hold on, I just spilled my chamomile tea all over me.
那么你担心什么呢？ So what are you worried about then?
那些画家把你画得都不一样 It's the way all the different artists draw you.
-什么？ -我真的不知道你是什么样 -What? -I don't really know what to expect.
有时你看起来像比较年轻的白兰度 Sometimes you look like a younger Brando.
而Crumb却把你画得... But then, the way Crumb draws you...
像个毛猿，身上都是... you look like a hairy ape, with all these...
恶心的波浪线 wavy, stinky lines undulating off your body.
我真的不知道你应该是什么样 I don't really know what to expect.
不，那些都是效果线 No, those are motion lines.
我是个活泼的人 I'm an active guy.
喏，只要你来这儿... Look, just come out here...
我就会努力成为 你想看到的任何人，好吗？ and I will try to be anyone that you want me to be, okay?
这可是很危险的建议 我可是出了名的爱折腾人 That's a dangerous offer. I'm a notorious reformer.
你是Joyce？ Are you Joyce?
-嘿，Harvey -嘿 -Hey, Harvey. -Hey.
-这么说我们还是见面了 -对 -So we finally meet in person. -Yeah.
嗯，在我们开始做任何事前， 你最好知道我做过输精管切除术 Look, before we get started with any of this, you might as well know I had a vasectomy.
-有什么不对？ -没什么 -What's wrong? -Nothing.
有点不对劲 你一直在四处张望 Something's wrong. You keep looking around everywhere.
我从来都想不到你会在 这种地方吃饭 I guess I never imagined you'd eat in a place like this.
什么，我？不，我从没到过这里 What, me? No, I've never been here.
我以为你会喜欢 I thought you'd like it.
-不过显然你不喜欢，对吗？ -不，这里很好这又有什么区别？ -But obviously you don't, do you? -No, it's fine. What difference does it make?
不知道我想没区别 I don't know. None, I guess.
这菜单上有好多肉 They got a lot of meat on this menu.
你是素食者？ You're a vegetarian?
有点，嗯，我是说.... Kind of, you know, I mean....
自从我养了一只猫... Ever since I got a pet cat...
我就不愿意吃动物了 I've had a lot of trouble eating animals.
我支持而且理解PETA（人道对待 动物协会）之类的团体... I support and identify with groups like PETA...
不过不幸的是， 我诊断出自己有贫血 but unfortunately, I'm a self-diagnosed anemic.
而且，我对蔬菜过敏... Also, I have all these food allergies to vegetables...
它们让我的肠子很不舒服 which give me serious intestinal distress.
我想我有许多边缘性的健康障碍... I guess I have a lot of borderline health disorders...
所以在吃的方面就有很严格的限制 that limit me politically when it comes to eating.
你是个有病的女人 You're a sick woman.
还不是，不过将来会是的 Not yet, but I expect to be.
我家里每个人都有点变质疾病 Everyone in my family has some sort of degenerative illness.
晚上好Good evening. Good evening.
我本来正要打扫... I was gonna clean up...
不过我又何必让你留下 不真实的印象呢？ but why should I give you any false notions?
事实上， 我在整洁性方面有严重的问题 The truth is, I got a serious problem with cleanliness.
就算我把一个盘子洗了十次， 它还是会很脏 If I had to wash a dish 10 times, it'd still be dirty.
因为我学不会铺床， 他们甚至把我踢出了军队 They even kicked me out of the army 'cause I couldn't learn to make a bed.
我见过比这更糟的 I've seen worse.
你能给我拿点水和阿司匹林吗？ Could you get me some water and a few aspirin?
什么，你头疼？ What, you got a headache?
-没有，不过我要预防 -好的 -No, but I want to avoid one. -Yeah.
我跟你说 Let me tell you something.
有个伴总是好事 Sure is nice to have company.
嗯，我是说... You know, I mean...
尽管你有那么多问题， 你看来还是个非常好的人 despite all your problems, you seem like a great person.
要是我调情的本事有点退化了，我很抱歉 I'm sorry if my dating skills are a little rusty.
那只是因为我曾经和女人一起下了地狱，然后又回来 It's just that I've been through hell and back with women.
最后那个是一个真正卑鄙的婊子 That last one turned out to be a real nasty bitch.
-和你在一起我也很开心 -是吗？ -I had a nice time with you, too. -Yeah?
你很开心？ You had a nice time?
不要让别人重复他们说的话 这很讨厌 Don't make people repeat themselves. That's annoying.
对不起 Sorry.
过来 Come here.
浴室在哪儿？ Which way is the bathroom?
穿过厨房，在右边 Through the kitchen, on the right.
Joyce，怎么了？哪里不对？ Joyce, what's wrong? What is it?
我不知道 我想是那种雅皮食物让我难受 I don't know. I think that yuppie food did me in.
我很难过 I feel terrible.
至少让我为你做点事吧 Let me at least do something for you.
要我给你做点什么吗？ Can I make you something?
-喝点甘菊茶怎么样？ -甘菊茶？ -How about some chamomile tea? -Chamomile tea?
你这样的人怎么会弄那个？ 我以为你在早餐时喝汽水 What's a guy like you doing with that? I thought you drank soda pop for breakfast.
我只是注意到我们开始通电话时 你喝了很多 I just noticed you drank a lot of it when we started talking on the phone.
食品合作社的那个姑娘... The girl at the food co-op...
把各种这类茶都挑给我了 she picked me out all kinds of this herbal stuff.
里面有一种对 胃痛很有效在这儿 One of these is good for stomach aches. Here.
熊奶奶的肚痛薄荷什么的 Grandma Bear's Tummy Mint or something, I think.
嘿，你还在那儿吗？ Hey, are you still there?
我想我们应该省掉 所有求爱过程，直接结婚 I think we should skip the whole courtship thing and just get married.
能把你叫到这里来 我很高兴 Man, am I glad I talked you into coming up here.
你知道吗，要是再一个人过下去， 我真的会受不了的 You know, any more time alone, I really might have lost it.
我也是 Me, too.
你搬到克里夫兰来没问题吗？ You don't have any problems with moving to Cleveland?
一点没有 Not really.
我发现大多数美国城市 都是一样沉闷 I find most American cities to be depressing in the same way.
那你对输精管切除术也没有想法吗？ And you're okay with the vasectomy thing?
嘿，Toby Hey, Toby.
不行，你不能吃我的 White Castle汉堡包... No, you can't have any of my White Castle hamburger...
所以请你连问都不要问 so please don't even ask.
-是吗？我能吃根薯条吗？ -可以，不过只能吃一点， -Yeah? Can I have a fry? -Okay, but just a couple, Harvey.
我要到很晚才吃晚饭... I'm not going to be eating dinner until very late...
得靠这个撑下去 and this has got to hold me over.
你要去干什么，做礼拜？ What have you got, a church function?
不，我要开车到托莱多看一部电影 你想去吗？ No, I'm driving to Toledo to see a movie. Would you like to come?
不，今晚我要去特拉华 我要结婚了 No, I gotta go to Delaware tonight. I'm getting married.
-为什么去特拉华？ -我要娶的女人住在威尔明顿 -Why Delaware? -The chick I'm marrying is from Wilmington.
而且我要帮她把 东西搬到这儿来 Plus, I got to help her move her stuff back here.
你为什么要开车去托莱多看电影？ Why are you driving to Toledo to see a movie?
在Mapletown不放这部电影 It's not playing at the Mapletown.
-我还不知道你有女朋友了 -啊，我们上星期才见面 -I didn't know you had a girlfriend. -Yeah, we met last week.
有什么电影值得开车往返260英里去看？ What movie could possibly be worth driving 260 miles roundtrip for?
是一部新片子，名叫《书呆子的报复》 It's a new film called Revenge of the Nerds.
讲的是一群大学生书呆子... It's about a group of nerd college students...
他们一直被学校里的运动员捉弄 who are being picked on all the time by the jocks.
于是他们决定报复 So they decide to take revenge.
照这么说你站在书呆子那边？ So what you're saying is you identify with those nerds?
是的，我认为我自己就是个书呆子... Yes, I consider myself a nerd...
这部电影鼓舞了我 and this movie has uplifted me.
有一个场面是在一次赛前动员会上， 有一个书呆子抓起麦克风... There's this one scene where a nerd grabs the microphone during a pep rally...
宣布他是一个书呆子，而且他为此骄傲... and announces that he is a nerd and that he is proud of it...
要站出来为其他书呆子争取权利 and stands up for the rights of other nerds.
-好极了 -然后他要求赛前动员会上的所有孩子... -Right on. -Then he asks all the kids at the pep rally...
凡是认为自己是书呆子的，都到前面来 who think they are nerds, to come forward.
于是会场上几乎所有人都走上前去 这就是影片的结尾 So nearly everyone in the place does. That's the way the movie ends.
-这么说书呆子赢了？ -是的 -So the nerds won? -Yes.
很好 All right.
你瞧，你看到了这部电影， 而我要结婚了 You know, you got this movie, and I'm getting hitched.
-我们都过了愉快的一个月 -没错 -We both had a good month. -Right.
-Harvey？等一下！ -怎么？ -Harvey? Wait! -Yeah?
你要在特拉华呆多久？ 因为我想和你一起看这部电影 How long will you be in Delaware? Because I'd like to see this movie with you.
不知道我要去一个星期 I don't know. I'm gonna be gone a week.
不过那以后我就有老婆了 所以我得把她也一起带上 But then, I'm gonna have a wife. So I'm going to have to bring her along, too.
这是女孩子看的电影吗？ Is it a girl flick?
得看是什么样的女孩 你的新娘是哪一种女孩？ Depends on the girl. What kind of girl is your new bride?
她是书呆子吗？ Is she a nerd?
我不知道，老弟 I don't know, man.
嗯，也许吧她喜欢草药茶 Maybe, yeah. She's into herbal tea.
最后我真的成了他漫画中的人物 I did end up becoming a character in his comics.
Harvey总是突出反面或乖戾的一面 Harvey tends to push the negative or the sour.
而他可能非常消沉， 所以也非常让人郁闷 And he can be very depressed, and therefore very depressing.
Harvey，你认为你对Joyce的描绘公正吗？ Harvey, do you think you portray Joyce fairly?
是的，我觉得我对她的描绘很公正 Yeah, I think I portray her fairly.
出于明显的原因，我没有... There's some things that she does that I don't put in there...
把她干的一些事写进去 我不想让自己的脑袋搬家 for obvious reasons. I don't wanna get my head cut off.
我认为我的描绘基本上相当准确 I think my portrayal is generally fairly accurate.
有很多故事我亲身经历了... There've been stories that I've participated in...
或者有些事情我亲眼目睹了... or things that have happened, and I've seen them...
而且我觉得那都是快乐得多的事 可他就是没把它们写进去... as a lot more happy things going on in there. He just doesn't put that in...
因为他觉得阳光和鲜花卖不出去 because he just doesn't think that sunshine and flowers sell.
对吧？ Is that right?
你总是说，“同病相怜” You always say, "Misery loves company."
你知道，我是个悲观的人，就是这样 You know, I'm just a gloomy guy, that's all.
我的观点是：悲伤和死亡 It's my perspective: gloom and doom.
瞧，我还以为我嫁给了一个有幽默感的人 And see, I thought I was marrying somebody with a sense of humor.
看来我是骗了你 I guess I fooled you.
这是什么狗屁玩意啊，老弟 What a crock of shit, man.
-那不是重点 -你没有看到整部片子的重点 -That's not the point. -You missed the whole point of the movie.
在这堆垃圾里什么是我要找的重点呢？ Where the hell am I supposed to find the point in garbage?
我同意Toby的看法 这是一个关于希望和宽容的故事 I agree with Toby. I think it's a story of hope and tolerance.
对，它讲的是被捉弄的人 成为英雄的故事 Yes, it's about time that the people who get picked on get to be the heroes.
这是部有趣的片子， 而且我明白你为什么喜欢它，Toby It's an entertaining flick and all, and I can see why you like it, Toby.
可是你根本不可能和 银幕上的那些人一样 But those people on the screen ain't even supposed to be you.
他们是大学生... They're college students...
他们和父母一起住在郊区的大房子里 who live with their parents in big houses in the suburbs.
他们将要得到学位，得到好的工作， 再也不会是书呆子了 They're gonna get degrees, get good jobs, and they're gonna stop being nerds.
我跟你说过你太吵吧？ 小声点 Remember what I told you about loud talking? Use your inside voice.
你瞧，Toby，那部片子里的人... Look, Toby, the guys in that movie...
可不是跟自己祖母一起住在少数民族区的... are not 28-year-old file clerks who live with their grandmother...
-28岁的档案管理员 -够了 -in an ethnic ghetto. -That's enough.
他们要想得到电脑可不是像你那样... They didn't get their computers the way you did...
拿一大堆盒盖再加49块5角从超市换来 by trading in a bunch of box tops and $49.50 at the supermarket.
你真好笑， You're funny, Harvey.
我要坐前面 I'm getting in the front.
当然，Toby 你可以到电影院里去做白日梦... Sure, Toby, fine. You go to the movies and daydream...
可是这个《书呆子的报复》不是真实的 这是好莱坞的臭狗屎 but this Revenge of the Nerds ain't reality. It's Hollywood bullshit.
Harvey，别再烦他了 Harvey, let him alone.
我喜欢这部电影是因为它让我 回到了生命中的另一段时光 The thing that I loved about it is I was transported to another time in my life.
-我喜欢他们拿着摄像机的时候-- -要是每个人都能看看它.... -I like when they took the video cameras-- -lf everyone could see it....
它就和《我有一个梦》的演讲一样了 It's the same as the "l Have a Dream" speech.
它给人很多力量 It's very empowering.
我对Toby那么尖刻也许是因为我想到了自己的问题 Maybe I was being so harsh on Toby on account of my own problems.
你瞧，我结婚还不到一个月... You see, I wasn't even married a month...
我老婆就已经让我看到麻烦的苗头了 and my old lady was already showing signs of trouble.
我承认，我愿意那么快结婚 是因为不管什么女人要我，我都能接受 Granted, I tend to get married fast, 'cause I'll take any woman that'll have me.
可是这一次，我真是碰上对手了 But this time I really met my match.
这些78年的旧唱片怎么办？你就不能把它们卖给 认识的收藏者吗？ How about these old 78s? Can't you sell them to one of your collectors?
你在开玩笑吧？没门 Are you kidding me, man? No way.
我不想丢掉78年的 I ain't getting rid of my 78s.
那算了我放弃 Forget it, then. I give up.
要是你什么东西都不肯扔， 我又怎么能腾出放东西的地方？ How can I make more storage space if you won't get rid of anything?
你知道什么？我会扔掉一些的 You know what? I'll get rid of stuff.
-只是不扔那些好的 -每样东西对你来说都是好的 -Just not my good stuff. -Everything is your good stuff.
要是连个待的地方都没有， 我又怎么能住在这儿？ How am I supposed to live here if there's no room for me?
好吧，宝贝 Come on, baby.
我会给你腾出地方的，好吗？ I'll make room for you, okay?
只是你要给我时间 做这种事情我不太拿手 You just have to give me time. I'm not so good at these things.
-因为你有强迫症 -得了！ -Because you're obsessive-compulsive. -Come on!
我不想听见那些心理学的废话 I don't wanna hear that psycho-babble crap.
你爱不爱听我可不管 你就是《心理障碍的诊断与统计手册》第三版里作病例的儿童 I don't care if you don't wanna hear it. You are the poster child for the DSM III.
我要告诉你，我来自一个 极其失常的家庭 I'll have you know I come from a very dysfunctional family.
我可以发现几英里以外的病态人格 I can spot a personality disorder miles away.
你好，Joyce Hello, Joyce.
Harvey在家吗？ Is Harvey home?
边缘性自闭症 Borderline autistic.
你在听我说吗？ 我告诉你，那个Toby是个间谍 Are you listening to me? I tell you, that Toby is a spy.
妄想症患者 Paranoid personality disorder.
多态倒错 Polymorphously perverse.
嘿，留言吧 Hey, leave a message.
是我把话筒拿起来 This is me. Pick up the phone.
说出来你不会相信... You're not going to believe this...
有几个洛杉矶的演出商打来电话 想要排一部关于我的生活的戏 but some LA producer called and wants to do a play about my life.
给我回电就打这个电话 Call me back. Call me here.
夸大妄想 Delusions of grandeur.
我认为漫画可以非常接近艺术 See, I think comics can pretty much be an art form, man.
我是说，那些图画要多好就能有多好... I mean, the pictures can be as good as they want to be...
那些文字要多好就能有多好... and the words can be as good as they want to be...
一个人不管要用它表现什么， 都可以表现得很好 and a man can do pretty much anything he wants to.
是这样，可是我从特拉华一路到这儿 可不是为了谈漫画 That's true, but I didn't come all the way from Delaware to talk about comics.
在浓云密布的灰暗世界 Where is my American splendor
我的岁月日复一日地流逝 in a world that's cloudy and gray?
我的美利坚荣光又在何方？ Where life keeps passing by me day by day
在浓云密布的灰暗世界 Where is my American splendor
我的岁月日复一日地流逝 in a world that's cloudy and gray?
我的美利坚荣光又在何方？ Where life keeps passing by me day by day
如果你觉得看有关自己生活的漫画感觉很怪... If you think reading comics about your life seems strange...
那就去看关于它的戏吧 try watching a play about it.
在我看这部电影的时候， 上帝才知道我会怎么想 God only knows how I'll feel when I see this movie.
情况变得很好 Things were going pretty good for a change.
很多人都叫我是“蓝领的马克·吐温” Variety called me "the blue-collar Mark Twain. "
Doubleday有意出版一本《光耀美国》的选集 Doubleday was interested in publishing an anthology of American Splendor.
我讨厌检查包裹总是没完没了 I hate checking bags, man. It always takes forever.
公共汽车马上就要开走了 也就是说我要多花30块钱叫出租 The bus is gonna leave soon. That means I gotta shell out an extra $30 for a cab.
我就料到是这样那个走运的 雅皮士能赶上公共汽车了 Figures. That lucky yuppie is gonna get the bus in time.
-你知道吗，输精管切除术是可逆的 -该死的雅皮士什么都得到了 -You know, vasectomies are reversible. -Goddamn yuppies get everything, man.
你在听我说吗？ 我说输精管切除术是可逆的 Are you listening to me? I said vasectomies are reversible.
什么？你在说什么呀？ What? What are you talking about?
我不想要孩子 I don't want no kids.
再说我第一次见到你 就跟你说我做过输精管切除术 And I came clean about my vasectomy the first time I set eyes on you.
我知道，可是我觉得情况不同了 I know, but I think things have changed.
-我们可以组成一个家 -家？ -I think we can be a family. -Family?
好吧我们会成为一个什么样的家呢？ Right. What kind of family could we possibly be?
和孩子在一起我过不好 I ain't no good with kids.
上帝啊，我连自己都照顾不好 Christ, I can barely take care of myself.
我可以照顾孩子和你 I can take care of the kid and you.
没门，Joyce别再想这个了 No way, Joyce. Forget it.
我不能有孩子我干不了 I can't have no kids. I can't do it.
那张Ornette Coleman的专辑到哪儿去了？ Where the hell is that Ornette Coleman album?
你知道的，明天我要做评论 You know, I got a review due tomorrow.
我没动过，Harvey 求你让我睡觉好吗？ I didn't touch it, Harvey. Would you please let me sleep?
起来吧，1:00 了 一个人怎么可以睡到这么晚？ Come on, it's 1:00. How late can a person sleep, man?
今天正好是星期六，你这狗娘养的自私鬼 It happens to be Saturday, you selfish son of a bitch.
那也没有区别 That don't make no difference.
-别告诉我该干什么 -我没有告诉你该干什么 -Don't tell me what to do. -I'm not telling you what to do.
是我搬进了你的城市，搬进了你家... I'm the one who moved into your city, into your home...
搬进你的输精管切除术... into your vasectomy...
搬进你这一团糟的生活 into your whole screwed-up life.
最起码你该让我 用自己的方式住在这里 The least you could do is allow me to live here in my own way.
我什么都试过了... I tried everything...
可是也没法让这女人起床 but nothing could get this woman out of bed.
我是说，她不想去找工作，不想出门... I mean, she wouldn't get a job, wouldn't go out...
不想交朋友，什么都不想 wouldn't make friends, nothing.
Joyce对自己的诊断是临床抑郁症 Joyce diagnosed herself as clinically depressed.
我不知道她是怎么过的... I didn't know what the hell she was going through...
不过我肯定要为此付出代价 but it was sure taking its toll on me.
Joyce，我们有一条留言 你怎么没有.... Joyce, we got a message here. How come you didn't....
没用的，老兄 Useless, man.
嗨这是给Harvey Pekar的留言 我名叫Jonathan Greene... Hi. This is a message for Harvey Pekar. My name is Jonathan Greene...
我是David Letterman的晚间节目的制片人 and I'm a producer of Late Night with David Letterman.
我们想要你到我们的节目里来 宣传你的漫画，想跟你谈谈 We want to talk to you about coming on the show to plug your comics.
请给我们打电话，号码是212-555-3333 Please give us a call at 212-555-3333.
谢谢 Thanks.
Joyce终于从被窝里起来了 Joyce finally got off the futon.
不行No. No.
得了，又有谁会在乎？ Come on, who the hell cares?
-耶稣基督啊 -把那个给我 -Jesus Christ. -Give that to me.
你到底在干什么？ What the hell are you doing?
销售策划 Merchandising.
-人们喜欢这节目？ -嗯 -People like this show? -Yeah.
真不敢相信我的嗓子又坏了 I can't believe my voice is going.
怎么了？ 你在旅馆里还好好的 What's the matter? You were fine in the hotel.
你要喝点什么吗？ You want something to drink?
我很饿你不饿吗？ I'm hungry. Aren't you hungry?
他们应该给点油炸面圈什么的瞧这个 They should give you doughnuts or something. Look at this.
-Dave好了，正等你呢 -是吗？ -Dave's ready for you now. -He is?
你有什么吃的吗？我的肚子正咕咕叫 You got something to eat? 'Cause my stomach is growling.
-没时间吃东西了 -别这样 -There's no time to eat. -Come on.
等等，那个布娃娃呢？ Wait, what about the doll?
他已经把它带到桌上了 你就不能不提它吗？ He's got it at the desk. Would you relax about that?
-朋友，我们很急 -好的 -Guys, we're in a hurry. -Okay.
-往哪走？ -就走这里 -Which way? -Right this way.
谢谢，小伙子们 Thank you, boys.
今晚我们的下一位嘉宾 在克里夫兰一家医院里作档案管理员 Our next guest tonight works as a file clerk at a Cleveland hospital.
他还把他每天的苦与乐写成了漫画 He also writes comic books which deal with his day-to-day pains and pleasures.
这个就是那九卷漫画的选集 This is an anthology of the nine of those comics.
它的题目是《光耀美国》 It's entitled American Splendor.
在克里夫兰的大街上，人们 都会很高兴地和Harvey Pekar打招呼 From off the streets of Cleveland, folks, please say hello to Harvey Pekar.
Harvey，出来吧 Harvey, come out here.
嗨，Harvey Hi, Harvey.
谢谢你来这里 Thanks for coming out here.
坐吧 Have a seat.
你说我“古怪”是什么意思？ 我在这节目之前就见过你了 What do you mean calling me "curious"? I met you before the show.
-我的意思是“古怪”得让人着迷 -好的 -I meant "curious" in a fascinating way. -All right.
你是一个有着非常迷人的风度的人 A man who has the presence of one who is quite fascinating.
因为我在这节目之前就见过你了 我认为你是个很好的人 'Cause I met you before the show. I thought you were a pretty nice guy.
等等，我觉得我可能 和东郭先生一样 I thought, wait a minute, I might be nursing a viper in my bosom.
有点那种味道 Something like that.
你对这个有点戒心？ You're a little defensive about this?
对啊，我正等你给我来那种克里夫兰的玩笑 Yeah, I'm waiting for those Cleveland jokes. Go ahead.
-好的，别激动 -对，好啊 -All right, settle down. -Yeah, all right.
让我们对那些可能还不熟悉 你作品的人说明一下... Let's explain to folks who may not be familiar with your work...
这也是你来这儿的目的 what it is you do here exactly.
你把你日常的生活写成漫画 You have comic books about you in your daily life.
而你在克里夫兰的一家医院里 也有一份正式的工作 And you also have a regular job in Cleveland working at a hospital.
没错 That's right.
-你认识这人？ -现在快要不认识了 -You know this guy? -I'm beginning to wonder.
没准你靠出卖你的作品也可以生活 You could probably get by on what you make selling your work.
因为人们希望你写得更多， 而且你又在发行这本选集 Because people want you to write more, and you're publishing this anthology.
谁？什么人？ 你在说什么？ Who? What people? What are you talking about?
-你到底是从哪里听到这些的？ -我知道你.... -Where the hell do you get that stuff? -I know that you....
你知道，那个-- You know, that--
我不是那种专门作秀的骗子 我说的是真话继续，老兄 I'm no show-biz phony. I'm telling the truth. Go on, man.
你不能.... You can't....
-至少他跟得上 -更像是在迎合他 -At least he's keeping up with Letterman. -Pandering is more like it.
你的意思是要告诉我，其他人 没有就写作的事和你联系.... You mean to tell me that other people haven't contacted you for writing literary....
-我是说-- -你可以当一个职业作家 -I mean-- -You could making a living as a writer.
你在那儿想干什么？ What are you trying to do over there?
我想看一些新闻 有一条爆炸新闻... I'm trying to get some news. There's a big story about to break...
是关于美国卖武器给伊朗和敌对方的 about the US selling arms to lran and the Contras.
-放松点 -不用担心 -Just relax. -Don't worry about it.
总算有点好东西了看看这个 Finally, something good. Watch this.
-我有工作 -我知道你有工作我也有工作 -I got a job. -I know you've got a job. I've got a job.
-我们都很走运我们都有工作 -那么问题在哪儿？ -We're both very lucky. We both have jobs. -Then what's the matter?
-开玩笑，老兄 -我们得继续 -Joke, man. -We gotta go.
Harvey，我喜欢你我是站在你这边的 我喜欢那些漫画 Harvey, I like you. I'm on your side. I enjoy the comic books.
-快，跟我们说说这个小布娃娃 -这是我老婆做的 -Quickly, tell us about the little doll. -My wife made it.
-我是不是让你很难受？ -不 -Am I giving you a hard time? -No.
-我是不是让你很紧张？ -没有 -Am I making you nervous? -No.
我们得继续 我要说的是这些娃娃是要出售的 We have to go now. I wanted to mention these are for sale.
-它们是用你的旧衣服做的 -没错 -They're made out of your old clothing. -Right.
-这要卖多少钱？ -34块 -What do these go for? -$34.
-这个要34美元？ -怎么了，你比我还小气吗？ -$34 for this? -What are you, cheaper than me?
-你会为这个出34美元吗？ -不，不过我没想要这么多是我老婆想的 -Would you pay $34 for that? -No, but I'm not asking it. My wife is.
好聪明的回答 Such brilliant repartee.
好家伙 Shit.
好了，你怎么看？ So, what do you think?
自大狂 Megalomaniac.
嗨，这是给Harvey Pekar的留言 Hi, this is a message for Harvey Pekar.
他来自克里夫兰的大街， 女士们，先生们，让我们欢迎他... From the streets of Cleveland, ladies and gentlemen, please welcome...
他就是Harvey Pekar Harvey，出来吧，伙计 the one, the only Harvey Pekar. Harvey, come on out, buddy.
事情很快就明朗了， 他们邀请我上这个节目只是为了搞笑 It became clear pretty fast that I was invited on the show just for laughs.
你看上去就像你见过的 许多在公共汽车上睡觉的人 You look like a lot of guys you see sleeping on buses.
-对不起 -没关系，Dave，开心一下嘛 -Sorry. -It's all right, Dave, have a good time.
-我知道，我们尽力做好我们的事 -这是你的天地我只不过身处其中 -I know, we're doing what we can. -It's your world. I'm just living in it.
但是我又干吗要在乎呢？ But what the hell did I care?
Letterman是个不错的人 就让他取笑我吧 Letterman was an okay guy. Let him take potshots at me.
只要我能拿到钱和推销我的漫画 So long as I got paid and got to plug my comics.
我对自己说，你看上去就像我见过的每一张 嫌犯画像 I think to myself, you look like every police artist sketch I've ever seen.
有趣的是... Funny thing is...
我和Letterman的一些表现很对观众的口味 something about me and Letterman clicked for the viewers.
他不停地叫我过去 He kept wanting me back.
-大约是一年前的这个月-- -对啊 -It was about a year ago, this month-- -That's right.
不，上个月 No, last month.
一年零一个月前，你 第一次出现在这个节目里 A year ago, last month, you made your first appearance on the show.
-从那以后你发生了什么事？ -没有多少事，David -What has happened to you since? -Not much, David.
变化很慢我还是干老工作 It's slow going. I still have the same job.
但是你瞧，Harvey，你是美国梦的化身 But see, Harvey, you're the embodiment of the American Dream.
不仅仅是我得到了瞩目 And it wasn't just me getting all the attention.
开拍 Action.
这是免费的吗？ Are these free?
由于我出现在Letterman的节目里... As a result of my appearances on Letterman...
我的老伙伴Toby Radloff也跟着在MTV 里出了一回风头 my buddy Toby Radloff, landed a gig extolling the virtues of MTV.
走路看着点 Watch where you're going.
-好的，你这该死的雅皮怪物 -我摄影棚里的这个该死的家伙是谁？ -All right, you fucking yuppie freak. -Who the fuck is this on my set?
瞧瞧，这一回的主角 Look at this, the man of the hour.
这是我在MTV时代的新造型 This is my new do for the MTV generation.
去年我们在克里夫兰采访漫画家Harvey Pekar时... We came upon Toby Radloff while doing a story in Cleveland last year...
遇到了他的朋友Toby Radloff on his friend, the comic artist Harvey Pekar.
Toby是一个真正的书呆子，而且不介意 别人问有关于此的问题 Toby's a genuine nerd, and he doesn't care if you have a problem with that.
嗨，我的名字是Toby Radloff，来自俄亥俄州 克里夫兰市的真正书呆子 Hi, my name is Toby Radloff, a genuine nerd from Cleveland, Ohio.
你们都知道，有许多时髦的人... And as you know, many hip people...
包括许多大学生， 都要去过春假 including a lot of college students, are going to be heading for spring break.
但是我决定，就在这里，... But I have decided to spend my own personal spring break...
美丽的俄亥俄州克里夫兰市过我的春假 right here in beautiful Cleveland, Ohio.
今天，我明白了一个道理 That day, I had an epiphany.
看来像Toby和我这样的真正社会精英... It seemed that real salt-of-the-earth people, like Toby and me...
是由这些大财团任命的 were getting co-opted by these huge corporations.
我们被当作体系内失败者的榜样受到嘲讽 We were getting held up and ridiculed as losers in the system.
这里是Toby Radloff，正在度春假的真正书呆子... This is Toby Radloff, genuine spring-break party nerd...
完毕signing off. signing off.
我又能说什么？那是80年代，老兄 What can I say? It was the '80s, man.
Harvey，你在听我说话吗？ Harvey, are you listening to me?
我一直在读关于在战争地区 长大的孩子的故事 I've been reading about these kids who grew up in these war zones.
巴勒斯坦人、以色列人... You know, Palestinians, lsraelis...
萨尔瓦多人、柬埔寨人 这些孩子真不可思议-- El Salvadorians, Cambodians. These kids are amazing--
你就是那个在Letterman节目里的人，对吧？ You're that guy from the Letterman show, right?
对，是我 Yeah, that's me.
那节目太棒了 你和苯宠物集锦一样好玩 That's so excellent. You and Stupid Pet Tricks are a riot.
是吗，那么买本我的漫画怎么 样，老兄？ Yeah? Then how about you buy one of my comics, man?
总之那是我做那傻节目的 唯一理由 That's the only reason I go on that dumb show, anyway.
好的一定回头就买，Harvey Pekar Right. Sure. Later, Harvey Pekar.
-真是个混蛋！ -我想写一本关于这些孩子的... -What an asshole! -I want to write a political comic book...
政治漫画 about these kids.
你听我说过几个星期会在 耶路撒冷举行一个会议 Listen to me. There's a conference in Jerusalem in a couple of weeks.
我想先从到那里采访做起 I'm gonna start by doing some interviews there.
等一下 你说什么，耶路撒冷？ Wait a minute. What are you talking about, Jerusalem?
就在不久以前，我好不容易才把你从被窝里拉起来 和我一起去做Letterman的节目 Lately I can barely drag you off the futon to go with me to the Letterman show.
你想知道为什么吗？ Do you want to know why?
因为我他妈的才不在乎Letterman的节目呢 Because I don't give a damn about the Letterman show.
我想做一些对我来说很重要的事， 做些有意义的事 I want to do something important to me, something that matters.
你知道我去那个节目只是为了 多赚点钱 You know I only go on the show for the extra bread.
要是你挪一挪你的懒屁股去找份工作... Maybe if you got your lazy ass up, and got yourself a job...
那么我没准也可以干些有意义的事 I could do something that matters, too.
-Harvey，你声音太大了 -你有没有那样想过？ -Harvey, you're yelling. -You ever think of that?
别.... Don't....
对不起 I'm sorry.
Joyce，对不起 Joyce, I'm sorry.
我觉得能够最终看到Joyce 为她自己的事情而激动还是很好的 I guess it was good to finally see Joyce excited about something of her own.
这真是疯狂你就不能在克里夫兰 做什么事吗？ This is crazy. Can't you just do something here in Cleveland?
你可以一个人过几星期的 You'll survive a couple of weeks by yourself.
好吧 All right.
在那边小心点，好吗？我爱你 Be careful out there, all right? I love you.
当然啦，我替她感到高兴， 可我自己还是很烦恼 Sure, I was happy for her, but I was still upset for me.
那天晚上我第一次发现了 那个肿块 It was later that night when I first found the lump.
我决定在Joyce回来之前不去想它 I was determined to put it out of my mind until Joyce got back.
说起来容易做起来难 Easier said than done.
我又担心什么？只要把表格给我就行了 What do I care? Just give me the chart.
-你有什么问题？ -Miguel，你看... -What is your problem? -Miguel, look...
我只是不想一次又一次上这儿来拿它， 行了吧？ I just don't want to keep coming back here for it, okay?
Harvey，从现在起你要耐心, 等一星期才能确认 Harvey, that patient's due to be admitted a week from now.
-为什么你老要来吵？ -这样的屁话我还要听多少回？ -Why do you always fight? -How often must we go through this?
快把该死的表格给我！ Just give me the fucking chart!
-我们听听医生怎么说 -好吧 -We'll see what the doctor has to say. -Fine.
怎么了？ What?
你是什么意思，还要两个星期？ What do you mean, another two weeks?
耶稣基督啊 你总是要回家的吧！ Jesus Christ. You've got to come home sometime!
喂？ Hello?
他妈的 Goddamn it.
一直走出去到桌边就行了 Just walk straight out to the desk.
我知道好的 I know. Okay, fine.
-你都准备好了？ -对 -You all set? -Yeah.
我开始按捺不住了 I was starting to lose it.
受到肿块和寂寞的困扰， 我觉得周围的一切都在朝我挤压过来 Between the lump, the loneliness, I felt like everything was closing in on me.
想到Joyce正在那里拯救世界... And with Joyce over there saving the world...
我从未如此强烈地感到自己 像一匹被抛弃的老马 I never felt more like a sell-out hack in my life.
好吧 Okay.
大家知道，如果说同病相怜的话... You know, folks, if it really is true that misery loves company...
那么我们的下一位嘉宾 肯定有一屋子的伙伴 our next guest must always have a house full of people.
好吧，混蛋 Okay, asshole.
你要为这个付出代价 You're gonna pay for that one, man.
女士们先生们， 请欢迎Harvey Pekar的归来 Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome back Harvey Pekar.
Harvey，这里不是论坛 这不是“与新闻界会面”节目 Harvey, this is not the forum. This is not Meet The Press.
你只要我谈那些不用思考的 狗屎吧，David You just want me to talk about simple-minded bullshit, David.
-我不像你要听命于人我有话要说 -别激动，Harvey -I ain't co-opted like you. I got things to say. -Relax, Harvey.
比如，我想谈谈违背公众利益的情况 For instance, I want to talk about a conflict of interest situation.
我们可以谈那个吧，David？怎么样？ Can we do that, David? How about that?
你知道，比如GE拥有这个NBC网 You know, like GE owning this network, NBC.
GE已经主要成为军事、工业、金融的-- GE has basically become a military, industrial, financial--
我们能把那个唱歌的家伙找回来吗？ 他已经走出大楼了？ Can we get the singing shitzu back here? Has he left the building yet?
你认为NBC新闻能够公正地报道他们做的事吗？ You think NBC news is gonna cover what they do fairly?
-我还想谈其他的一些事 -够了-- -I got other things I wanna talk about. -That's enough--
闭嘴，老兄！别插话 Just shut up, man! Don't push me.
-我在做我自己的事 -Harvey，这不是-- -I'm doing my own thing. -Harvey, this is not--
你害怕听到真话，David？ Are you afraid of the truth, David?
不是你说的内容不对 而是你选择的场合不对 It's not about what you're saying. It's about your choice of venue.
说出来你可能会生气， 但这是喜剧节目 It may come as a shock to you, but this is a comedy show.
-今晚不是了 -Joe，过来瞧瞧这个 -Not tonight, it ain't. -Joe, come check this out.
表现一下你讨人喜欢的地方， 做好你自己的节目吧 Take your winning personality and go get your own show.
-我不要做我的混蛋节目 -我们让你来做这节目已经有好多次了 -I don't want my own goddamn show. -We've had you on this show many times.
你生气过，抱怨过， 又推销你的漫画... You sulk, complain, and promote your comic book...
可你却还没谢过我们 and you really haven't been appreciative.
你根本没帮过我，好不好？ You didn't do me any favors, okay?
我现在还是个档案管理员 我一直都是个档案管理员... I'm still a file clerk. I've always been a file clerk...
没什么要谢你和你那些混蛋可怜观众的 and it's no thanks to you or to your goddamn pathetic audience.
我们要放一会儿广告 We're gonna take a commercial.
在那之后我们会回来， 猜一猜谁会不在这儿 And when we come back, guess who's not gonna be here.
你要我走是吧，David？ 来啊，像个男人一样跟我说 You want me to leave, David? Come on, ask me like a man.
-不要拿广告来当挡箭牌 -你家里还好吧，Harvey？ -Don't go hiding behind a commercial. -Are things okay at home, Harvey?
我家里好得很好了，再见，Dave Things are just great at home. Okay, goodbye, Dave.
再见，美利坚，什么都不谢 Goodbye, America, and thanks for nothing.
Harvey Pekar，女士们先生们， 我们马上回来 Harvey Pekar, ladies and gentlemen. We'll be right back.
-我看你这次是真做到了 -谁又会在乎？ -I guess you really did it this time. -Who the hell cares?
那个节目根本没提高我的销量 That show wasn't helping my sales anyway.
宝贝... Baby...
求你再也别离开了 please don't go away anymore.
我一个人就是没法过，你知道吗？ I just can't take being alone, you know?
要是你在那边见到那些孩子， 你就不会这么求我了 If you met those kids over there, you wouldn't ask that of me.
我要告诉你一件事... I'm telling you something...
要是你再离开，我会受不了的 if you go away again, I'm gonna lose it.
我们不该讨论这个 现在我的生活中需要做这件事 This is not up for discussion. I need this in my life right now.
你这么想我，我真的很感激，宝贝 I do appreciate the fact that you missed me so much, baby.
Harvey，那是什么？ Harvey, what is that?
我不明白 I don't understand.
“肿瘤”和“癌”是不是一回事？ Does "tumor" mean the same thing as "cancer"?
我们知道这个肿瘤是恶性的 We know the growth is malignant.
我们不知道的是，它会扩散到什么程度 What we don't know is how far it may have spread.
一旦我们有了结果， 就可以做出合理的治疗决定 Once we have the results, we can make informed decisions about treatment.
癌 Cancer.
诊断 Diagnosis.
核磁共振成像 MRI.
癌 Cancer.
我怎么会得癌呢？ How can I have cancer?
-我根本没觉得不舒服 -那是好现象 -I don't feel sick at all. -That's a positive thing.
我表哥Norman是得淋巴瘤死的 My cousin Norman died of lymphoma.
他29岁他是个很有才华的肿瘤学家 He was 29. He was a brilliant oncologist.
别说了！你不会死的，Harvey不会 Stop it! You're not gonna die, Harvey. You're not.
到时候你会怎样，宝贝？ 谁会来照顾你-- What's gonna happen to you, baby? Who's gonna take care of you--
看着我，注意听我说 Look at me and focus.
我们要渡过这一关 We are gonna get through this.
我了解疾病 我知道怎么对付这些事 I understand illness. I know how to handle these things.
对，可那是你，你明白吗？ Yeah, but that's you, you know?
我不够坚强 我不知道怎么才能积极起来 I'm not strong enough. I don't know how to be positive.
我不行我做不到 I can't do that. I can't do it.
-行的，你能做到 -不，我不能 -Yes, you can. -No, I can't.
我来告诉你怎么做 I'll tell you how.
你要把整件事写成漫画 You'll make a comic book of the whole thing.
你要把每个细节都记录下来 You'll document every detail.
那样一来，你就可以超脱 于整件事，直到它结束 And that way, you'll remove yourself from the experience until it's over.
我不行我就是不够坚强 I can't do that. I'm just not strong enough.
我只想死 Man, I just wanna die.
好吧没有你我也要干 That's fine. I'll do it without you.
我是Fred 你跟我打电话说了漫画的事 I'm Fred. You called me about the comic book.
对了，你是那个画家进来吧 Right, the artist. Come in.
这是我女儿，Danielle This is my daughter, Danielle.
我不得不带她一起来 希望你不要介意 I had to bring her along. I hope you don't mind.
嗨，Danielle你手上拿的是什么？ Hi, Danielle. What's that you're holding?
一匹小马 A pony.
一匹小马？他叫什么名字？ A pony? What's his name?
她是女孩子叫Clarissa She's a girl. Clarissa.
哦，我知道了 Oh, I see.
我是Joyce，很高兴见到你和Clarissa I'm Joyce, and I'm very pleased to meet both you and Clarissa.
听说Harvey的事我真的很难过 他在这儿吗？ I'm real sorry to hear about Harvey. Is he here?
他要工作到下个星期才开始化疗 He's going to work till next week when he starts the chemo.
所以我才想让这计划开始... That's why I want this project started...
因为一旦他呆在这里， 他就会来干涉的 because once he's stuck here, I know he'll take over.
该死Shit. Shit.
他妈的白痴 Fucking idiot.
嘿，Joyce，把门打开 Hey, Joyce, open the door.
我又忘带钥匙了 I forgot my keys again.
别关门 Hold the door.
把该死的门打开！ Open the fucking door, man!
-嘿，Harvey -Fred -Hey, Harvey. -Fred.
这是在干什么，老兄？ What's going on, man?
你瞧，我觉得这是个很棒的主意 You see, I thought it was a great idea.
Joyce说要是我们设法跟踪你的治疗过程.... Joyce said if we try to just follow you through your treatments....
她也觉得这是个好主意，对吗？ She thought it was a good idea, too, didn't she?
这是我们一直在讨论的一些点子 Here's some of the ideas we've been batting around.
好吧 All right.
上帝啊 Jesus.
Joyce根本不明白她在干什么 Joyce has no idea what she's doing, man.
这些画框里的文字太多了 There's too many words in these frames.
你什么时候再来，Fred？ When are you coming back, Fred?
她说大概是下星期二，我可以来 只不过.... She said something about next Tuesday, which is fine with me. It's just....
唯一的问题是，我可能还要把孩子带过来 The only thing is, I might have the kid again.
我的前妻可能要带走她， 不过我对她不太相信 My ex-wife is supposed to take her, but I don't have much faith in her showing up.
如今她的情况比我还糟 She's in worse shape than me these days.
下星期... Next week...
我的治疗会开始 my treatment begins.
帮我个忙，老兄带上孩子，好吗？ Do me a favor, man. Bring the kid, will you?
谢谢 Thanks.
我想死 I wanna die.
-什么？ -Joyce -Joyce. -What?
怎么了，Harvey？ What's wrong, Harvey?
你起来干吗？有什么事？ What are you doing up? What is it?
跟我说真话 Tell me the truth.
我是那个把自己... Am I a guy who writes about himself...
写进漫画的人吗？ in a comic book?
还是说，我只是那本书里的人物？ Or am I just a character in that book?
你在说什么呀？你这是什么意思？ What are you talking about? What are you saying?
要是我死了，那个人物还会继续存在吗？ If I die, will that character keep going?
还是说他就会慢慢消失？ Or will he just fade away?
哦，我的上帝Harvey，醒醒 Oh, my God. Harvey, wake up.
醒醒，Harvey快点 Wake up, Harvey. Come on.
哦，不快点醒醒 Oh, no. Come on, wake up.
你能听见我说话吗？ Can you hear me?
我的名字是Harvey Pekar My name is Harvey Pekar.
这是个少见的名字：Harvey Pekar That's an unusual name: Harvey Pekar.
1960年我得到了我的第一套 公寓房间和第一本电话簿 1960 was the year I got my first apartment and my first phone book.
现在想象一下，当我查找自己的名字... Now, imagine my surprise when I looked up my name...
却发现除了我还列出了另一个 Harvey Pekar时，我有多惊讶吧 and saw that in addition to me, another Harvey Pekar was listed.
我在上面被写成Harvey L. Pekar You know, I was listed as Harvey L. Pekar.
我的中间名是Lawrence My middle name is Lawrence.
他在上面被写成Harvey Pekar He was listed as Harvey Pekar.
所以，他是正宗的 Therefore, his was a pure listing.
后来在70年代... Then in the '70s...
我注意到电话簿上列出了第三个Harvey Pekar I noticed that a third Harvey Pekar was listed in the phone book.
这让我充满了好奇 Now, this filled me with curiosity.
为什么这世上三个有这么少见的名字的人... How can there be three people with such an unusual name in the world...
会住在一个城市里呢？ Iet alone in one city?
后来有一天... Then one day...
我的一个同事向我表示同情... a person I work with expressed her sympathy to me...
因为她以为我父亲死了 concerning what she thought was the death of my father.
她指出在报纸上有一个... She pointed out an obituary notice in the newspaper...
叫Harvey Pekar的人的讣告 for a man named Harvey Pekar.
而且他的一个儿子叫Harvey And one of his sons was named Harvey.
这就是其他的Harvey Pekar These were the other Harvey Pekars.
六个月以后，小Harvey Pekar也死了 And six months later, Harvey Pekar, Jr. died.
虽然这两个人我都没见过... Although I'd met neither man...
但我还是很伤心 I was filled with sadness.
“他们长什么样？”我心想 "What were they like?" I thought.
似乎我们的人生以一些无法解释的 方式连接在一起 It seemed our lives had been linked in some indefinable way.
但是故事到此还没有结束 But the story does not end there.
因为两年以后，电话簿上 又出现了一个Harvey Pekar For two years later, another Harvey Pekar appeared in the phone book.
这些人是谁？ Who are these people?
他们从哪来？ Where do they come from?
他们是干什么的？ What do they do?
这名字怎么了？ What's in a name?
谁是Harvey Pekar？ Who is Harvey Pekar?
要是你有兴趣的话， 楼上还有卖我们的T恤 We've got T-shirts for sale upstairs, if you're interested.
这是一年以后我们的主人公 Here's our man, a year later.
我莫名其妙地捱过了治疗， 而且医生很乐观 Somehow I made it through the treatments, and the doctors are optimistic.
Joyce做一本大型连环漫画的主意是对的 I guess Joyce was right about doing a big comic book.
我们把它作为绘图本小说出版， 这是我俩的第一次合作... We published the thing as a graphic novel, our first collaboration...
结果反响剧烈 and ended up with rave reviews.
我们甚至获得了几项国家图书奖 We even won a couple of National Book Awards.
想想吧 Go figure.
那些真漂亮 Those are beautiful.
这是你在这里找到的？ 我从没见过它们 Did you find this in there? I didn't even see those.
这些花你一样都没见过？ Ever seen one of these flowers?
你做好了吗？ Are you finished?
Danielle，我喜欢非常有表现力的颜色 Danielle, I love it. Very expressive colors.
谁的电话，Harvey？ What is it, Harvey?
是医生打来的 That was the doctor.
他说我完全康复了 He says I'm all clear.
我的病带来的最不可思议的后果就是Danielle The weirdest thing that came out of my illness was Danielle.
她真正的母亲不知跑哪儿去了... With her real mother running around who knows where...
而Fred看到她和Joyce相处得这么好... and seeing how well her and Joyce got on...
就认为她和我们在一起会生活得更好 Fred decided she'd have a better life with us.
一开始我很惊讶，但是后来我又想， 管它呢她是个好孩子 I was scared at first, but then I thought, what the hell. She's a good kid.
嗨，Harvey Hi, Harvey.
于是最后我们就收养了她， 把她当成了自己的孩子 So we ended up taking her and raising her as our own.
-你一直在倒着看它们 -我喜欢倒着看他们 -You keep reading them backwards. -I like reading them backwards.
那个人是你吗？ Is that one you?
我告诉你多少次了，他们都是我 I keep telling you, all of them's me, man.
你看起来就像个怪兽 You look like a monster.
等你看到你像什么再说吧 Wait till you see what you're gonna look like.
-我？ -对，现在你也是故事的一部分了 -Me? -Yeah, you're part of the story, too, now.
什么故事？ What story?
关于我生活的故事 The story of my life.
我知道我不如《小美人鱼》那样的 童话有趣-- I know I'm not as interesting as The Little Mermaid and all that magical crap--
我想我会写我自己的漫画 I think I'm gonna write my own comic.
-是吗？关于什么的？ -我还没决定 -Yeah? What about? -I'm not sure yet.
不过不是关于你的 But not about you.
我想你已经画得够多了 I think you have enough already.
你应该写你自己生活中的事 You should write about things in your own life.
你知道，比如学校... You know, like school...
和小马我不知道女孩子的事 and ponies. I don't know. Girl stuff.
你非得抓着我的手吗？ Do you have to hold my hand?
你怎么了，觉得我让你难为情？ What are you, embarrassed of me?
我知道，我让你难为情 我和我父亲的感觉一样 I know, I'm embarrassing. I felt the same way about my father.
不你只是把我的手攥得太紧了 No. It's just, when you hold my hand, you squeeze it too hard.
去吧 Go on.
Joyce说得对你有强迫症 Joyce is right. You are obsessive-compulsive.
去吧 Go on.
对，所以我认为是漫画让我重生 Yeah, so I guess comics brought me to life.
不过别以为这是什么快乐的大团圆结尾 But don't think this is some sunny, happy ending.
基本上每一天还是要挣扎着过 Every day is still a major struggle.
Joyce和我像疯了一样地吵架 而且她几乎从不工作 Joyce and I fight like crazy. And she barely works.
那孩子得了注意力缺乏症，而那是很罕见的疾病 The kid's got ADD and is a real handful.
我的生活一片混乱 My life is total chaos.
如果运气稍好一点，在退休后 我会健康地活一阵才死 With a little luck, I'll get a window of good health between retiring and dying.
黄金岁月，是吗？谁知道？ The golden years, right? Who knows?
面对我菲薄的退休金和因为 这部电影而拿到的丰厚报酬... Between my pension and the chunk of change I get for this film...
我应该会有所改变 I should be able to swing something.
当然，我最终会输掉这场战争 Sure, I'll lose the war eventually.
不过目标只是赢得途中的 几场小战斗，对吗？ But the goal is to win a few skirmishes along the way, right?
大惊喜！ Surprise!
因为没有人能否认 For he's a jolly good fellow
他是个快活又热心的人 Which nobody can deny
大惊喜 Surprise.